Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Motive
When I first started this blog sight I actually was just going to start a sight where I could have stuff about my family where relatives could come and check on whats going on with my family. I had no intention of making anything super personal just kind of fun side time filler. I find though that this blog has become very personal to me. As I have typed up insights and thoughts of my heart I have started dedicated the posts to my future children hoping that it will help them when they go through hard times to see what was going through my mind when I went through some of my hard times. More than that it has become a site of reflection for me too. I look back on things I've said and thought and I can see how far I've come. My motive has changed as I've done this, but I will never regret the blessings I have gained from keeping some of these thoughts in a place where they will never be lost. Even if I am the only one that reaps the benefits from this blog I am grateful I've done. I hope someday someone can gain at least one tenth of the insight from this site that I gained from typing it. If not I will never feel like I lost anything from doing it.
Friday, June 28, 2013
Compassion
It's amazing the things that will invoke in you a feeling of compassion, unexpectedly doors will open that originally you would have never thought to look inside. When you do look inside your eyes are opened to perspectives you didn't know existed. In the year since I have moved to Salt Lake City my life has been changed in ways I would have never expected before, and my eyes have been opened to concepts that I had never contemplated. I don't savor every memory I have made here, but I know every one of them can build me making me stronger for my future, even the things that I wish I could lock away. I have made decisions I haven't been proud of and I have made others that I know I will be grateful for, for the rest of my life.
But one of the greatest lessons I have learned is compassion, the desire to understand those who seem impossible to understand. I have learned to try to see that everyone does things for a reason, and chances are the reasons are more noble that we may first assume.
Humans are born with innate desire to love, and almost every persons actions are built in some way or another around that desire. When people lash out usually it's because they have been denied of that which is most essential to their life: Love. I don't know exactly what I have blind to all this time, but I have realized just how much people need to be loved, and how much people need to be excepted and supported, sometimes all people need is one person to believe in them for them to take flight.
I have also learned however that you should never allow yourself to be controlled or manipulated because you think that will show someone that they are cared for and loved. You never have to do that! You are less able to love yourself and in turn love others when you are controlled by others and circumstances. Love is not love unless it is accompanied by freedom, becoming a slave to someone else's desires is never a sign of love, it's a sign of selfishness.
It's hard finding a balance and as beings of passion we more often than not tend to go to the extremes in what we do. But I am truly understanding that it is by the small and simple things that great things are brought to pass. It is through small and simple acts that the greatest signs of love are reflected. In time I know our thoughts become our actions and I hope that regardless of my past, my thoughts will become the strength behind my actions.
But one of the greatest lessons I have learned is compassion, the desire to understand those who seem impossible to understand. I have learned to try to see that everyone does things for a reason, and chances are the reasons are more noble that we may first assume.
Humans are born with innate desire to love, and almost every persons actions are built in some way or another around that desire. When people lash out usually it's because they have been denied of that which is most essential to their life: Love. I don't know exactly what I have blind to all this time, but I have realized just how much people need to be loved, and how much people need to be excepted and supported, sometimes all people need is one person to believe in them for them to take flight.
I have also learned however that you should never allow yourself to be controlled or manipulated because you think that will show someone that they are cared for and loved. You never have to do that! You are less able to love yourself and in turn love others when you are controlled by others and circumstances. Love is not love unless it is accompanied by freedom, becoming a slave to someone else's desires is never a sign of love, it's a sign of selfishness.
It's hard finding a balance and as beings of passion we more often than not tend to go to the extremes in what we do. But I am truly understanding that it is by the small and simple things that great things are brought to pass. It is through small and simple acts that the greatest signs of love are reflected. In time I know our thoughts become our actions and I hope that regardless of my past, my thoughts will become the strength behind my actions.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Intertwined
Our lives are intertwined, who are we to say and determine where one life ends and another begins? Every life in some way flows into another, every life affects another in some significant way. No life is singly lived, or ever should be. Our lives are like a tapestry each thread woven into another, and each life part of a bigger picture. The minute you start clipping strings, and ripping threads you start loosing the bigger picture and things start to fall apart. We need each of those around us for the larger picture to be meaningful. And to attempt to live life singly and separated from those around us leaves life meaningless, with little color and in pieces.
~Carrie Cox
Monday, June 10, 2013
Human Complexity
Human complexity is something that over the last little while of my life I have been observing, and analyzing. People aren't just one soul of simple purpose and meaning, but I'm starting to realize that they are hundreds of pieces of all of the souls that have contributed to who they are. The reason that it is impossible for us as mortals to judge anyone is because there is so much complexity to each individual and the moments to their life than we can ever understand. Like a detailed painting we each have strokes of all of the colors of life, which colors we focus on is up to us, but the colors are still there.
There are so many complex emotions within each individual that it is impossible to make a judgement of character just based on one encounter, but's only after a life of encounter that you begin to even glimpse the depth to who someone is. It takes tears and laughter and awkward silence and moments of comfortable flowing conversation, silent communication across the room knowing your both saying the same thing in your hearts. Some communication isn't even described with words but with the emotion you feel in someone presence.
There is so much to people that goes unknown, but I do believe there is no such thing as an all good person, or an all bad one, there are tiny pieces of good in the worst of people, and there is a tug of temptation even in the strongest people. And everyone has moments of weakness when they become the thing they fear the most, even if only for a moment, whether or not they stay that way is completely up to them. But I know that I cannot judge someone based on that moment of weakness, because I have the same capability to fall the same distance if I am to proud to take note of the path I choose to walk on.
People are capable of giving love if only someone will take the time to show them they love there is to give. You can not judge the loveless soul that was never taught to love, especially if we are just another person denying them of that love. I don't always understand people and I won't pretend that I do, but what I do know is that it's the tiny and unnoticed details that make the most breathtaking pictures. And I believe that people are the same
There are so many complex emotions within each individual that it is impossible to make a judgement of character just based on one encounter, but's only after a life of encounter that you begin to even glimpse the depth to who someone is. It takes tears and laughter and awkward silence and moments of comfortable flowing conversation, silent communication across the room knowing your both saying the same thing in your hearts. Some communication isn't even described with words but with the emotion you feel in someone presence.
There is so much to people that goes unknown, but I do believe there is no such thing as an all good person, or an all bad one, there are tiny pieces of good in the worst of people, and there is a tug of temptation even in the strongest people. And everyone has moments of weakness when they become the thing they fear the most, even if only for a moment, whether or not they stay that way is completely up to them. But I know that I cannot judge someone based on that moment of weakness, because I have the same capability to fall the same distance if I am to proud to take note of the path I choose to walk on.
People are capable of giving love if only someone will take the time to show them they love there is to give. You can not judge the loveless soul that was never taught to love, especially if we are just another person denying them of that love. I don't always understand people and I won't pretend that I do, but what I do know is that it's the tiny and unnoticed details that make the most breathtaking pictures. And I believe that people are the same
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Learn to Dream
I testify to you of the power of the Atonement, I know that as long as your doing the best that you possibly can the lord make up the difference. No matter how big the difference, we were not sent to this earth to earn our fathers love, but to learn of his love and what he will do for us when he can't be there right by our side. We already have his love, it ours, because he is our father and we are his children. I testify that Christ is my friend and he is yours too, and he loves each and everyone of us. I testify that we have a loving Heavenly Father watching over us, and he patiently stands by waiting for the day that he can answer everyone one of our dreams. But first we have to learn to dream and to believe in them.
The trick in life is not in learning to dream, dreaming comes as naturally as breathing, if we let it. Dreaming is what sometimes saves us from the complexity of this detailed existence. The trick comes in learning to believe in our dreams, and believing that there is a supreme being watching over us that loves us enough to want to make our dreams come true. The trick is believing. But once you learn to believe it is a powerful tool, it changes the way you live life, it changes the eyes through which you see life, and it changes the soul which you become in this life.
The trick in life is not in learning to dream, dreaming comes as naturally as breathing, if we let it. Dreaming is what sometimes saves us from the complexity of this detailed existence. The trick comes in learning to believe in our dreams, and believing that there is a supreme being watching over us that loves us enough to want to make our dreams come true. The trick is believing. But once you learn to believe it is a powerful tool, it changes the way you live life, it changes the eyes through which you see life, and it changes the soul which you become in this life.
Doubt Not Only be Believing
The amazing thing about Moses and the Red Sea is that fact that when he had the impression to part the red sea he did not pause or hesitate he did not sit down and tell the lord that it was crazy or to hard, in a time full of pressure and faithlessness in those around him he simply believed. He knew that with God all things are possible, because he knew who he was and who he could become with the lords help. All things are possible not just the most practical. He believed and acted on that belief.
Doubt has been the precursor to every miracle that Almost happened whether in modern days or in biblical times. There was nothing about the parting of the Red Sea that was greater than the reformation of the church or even the small miracles that happen in each and every one of our lives. If you are listening to the still small voice, and believing in faith that you can do the things he is asking of you, you might as well be parting the Red Sea, because you are opening doors for others that until you had faith to follow the spirit had been powerfully locked. And if you can learn to have complete and unquestionable faith in God and his power in your life and through your life you might as well be the children of Israel through the Red Sea on dry ground, because allegorically that is precisely what you were sent her for.
We are in the last days, we've been saved for the last leg of the journey, and the last siege of this battle. In a day where the odds are so great against us we cannot afford to make those odds greater by doubting. Now is the time to have the faith to charge even when retreat seems to be the only option. We have a call, and we have power through the lord to do amazing things, all we need is to find the courage and belief to do them.
27 Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and athrust it into my side: and be not bfaithless, but cbelieving.
"With God All things are possible! "
Doubt has been the precursor to every miracle that Almost happened whether in modern days or in biblical times. There was nothing about the parting of the Red Sea that was greater than the reformation of the church or even the small miracles that happen in each and every one of our lives. If you are listening to the still small voice, and believing in faith that you can do the things he is asking of you, you might as well be parting the Red Sea, because you are opening doors for others that until you had faith to follow the spirit had been powerfully locked. And if you can learn to have complete and unquestionable faith in God and his power in your life and through your life you might as well be the children of Israel through the Red Sea on dry ground, because allegorically that is precisely what you were sent her for.
We are in the last days, we've been saved for the last leg of the journey, and the last siege of this battle. In a day where the odds are so great against us we cannot afford to make those odds greater by doubting. Now is the time to have the faith to charge even when retreat seems to be the only option. We have a call, and we have power through the lord to do amazing things, all we need is to find the courage and belief to do them.
27 Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and athrust it into my side: and be not bfaithless, but cbelieving.
"With God All things are possible! "
People May Not Hear
I have learned though the years that the words that go unwritten in time will become warped and twisted. People can use words as weapons against those who speak them, even when spoken in truth. In a world full of lawyers and attorneys people have learned to twist words to gain the result they desire no matter what the original intent was. If words go unwritten, they go undecided because there is no way to keep them solid and structured the way they once were if they are spoken and carried away in the winds of time. Something I've realized is People may not see the actions I do when they are not looking, and people may not hear some of the softer words I speak and in time, people may even forget the original message which I shared when they did hear me. I may not be able to show what I am feeling as well as I wish, But nobody can dispute the words that I write that contains the dynamic elements of my soul. People can never argue that the words that I write are not true to what I feel inside and who I am. For they are signed with the signature of my heart. And if people read my words seeking to understand who I am it is in my words they will find it. It is there in the signature of my soul.
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