Josh Groban - Hidden Away

Crazy Friday

Wow, well today was one of those super hard days in College that you just have to get through, and that's about all you can do. It was like finals week in one day I had four tests in one day, it was one really long day. I've been sick this week so that's been not so very fun, but I've gone to all my classes and tried to stay on top of things, which has been challenging but possible, even if only barely. So last night I stayed up late surprise, surprise but I was studying so I had a legitimate excuse. This morning I got up a lot later than I should have it was about 6:50 ish and I was the first one in my house up, I woke my brother up so he could get ready and be at the bus stop in time. Then I got ready super fast and the rest of my morning til 9:00 was spent studying for Psychology, in which I had a test on the brain and the first three chapters of the book. After Psychology I studies for my Oral Spanish test that I had at 11:40, which I got a 94%, what a relief! After that I studied for my Statistics test and my Written Spanish test. I went to Friday Forum at 12:30 and than I fit in another hour of studying. It's kind of funny slash sad that you can put so much time into studying and you can still look at the test and realize there's things you could have studied more, like you think you got them right but your not sure. Oh well I did the best I could.

I'm just glad I made it through today without breaking into tears, I was so tired, but I made it through. I know it wasn't on my own I could have never gotten through the day if I hadn't prayed for the strength to make it through. Friday Forum was also very good. Elder Donald Butler came and spoke about trials and how the lord will never ask you do go through something you are not strong enough to do, I felt like it was directed right at me. Although some of my trials and hard times may be self-inflicted I know that the lord is always understanding and there to help me, and he will help me through anything. I may not have known perfectly every answer to every test I took today, but what I do know I know, and I know that the lord loves me and all my imperfections and all of his children perfectly.

“We can easily manage if we will only take, each day, the burden appointed to it. But the load will be too heavy for us if we carry yesterday's burden over again today, and then add the burden of the morrow before we are required to bear it.” John Newton

"Although my memory's fading, I remember two things very clearly: I am a great sinner and Christ is a great Savior." John Newton

"I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am"
— John Newton

“I asked God for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all men, most richly blessed.” John Newton

oh love - brad paisley and carrie underwood

Elder Richard G. Scott

Tonight they had a beautiful and touching fireside with Richard G Scott as the speaker. It's amazing how you can know who someone is your whole life and never meet them yet they still have the amazing capacity to touch and to change your life forever. Tonight was one of those night's when my eyes where opened to the strength of someone that the chances are I will never meet. Being in College you start to hear a lot about courting and marriage, sometimes you get a little tired of hearing it, some times you feel just a little bit like it's being rubbed in your face that your still single, and you have no one specific to share you life with just yet, And then there are other times that I don't mind at all. Tonight was one of those night's that I felt ready and receptive to the spirit and the message. Elder Scott spoke a lot about marriage and the dedication and loyalty he had for his wife who he had married so long ago, and who passed away many years ago, but he spoke with the dedication of someone who had just seen her yesterday, and with the love and fervor of someone who was still keeping their marriage covenants, and was as in love with his wife today as he had been the day they got married. He told of all of the time the realized it was her strength beside him that got him through, he told of how in his point of view behind every great man there ever has been there's always a great woman.

I realized all over again tonight that I want to be that type of woman, someone inspiring, a woman who a man of god could gratefully call his, regardless of his calling. Whether he ended up being an apostle, prophet, bishop, or a humble farmer who dedicated his life to serving the lord. I want to be someone loving and supportive, that they could feel my support in everything they do. I want to be someone strong that a man could lean on when they felt weak, I want to have the courage, and faith to be able to support and be a strength to who ever I marry. I want to be someone that my future husband could look at as his equal partner, someone he could share his strengths and weaknesses with, and someone I could be able to share my weaknesses and strengths with in return.

The more I learn about the gospel the more I realize, that this gospel is all about love stories. It's about God's unending love for his children and their love for him in return. It's about the lost being found. It's about the wrong being made right, and about everything being put in the right order, through love and because of love. And the more I learn about love the more I am amazed by what love makes possible, and the capacity of love to change our lives