Learn to Dream

    I testify to you of the power of the Atonement, I  know that as long as your doing the best that you possibly can the lord make up the difference. No matter how big the difference, we were not sent to this earth to earn our fathers love, but to learn of his love and what he will do for us when he can't be there right by our side. We already have his love, it ours, because he is our father and we are his children. I testify that Christ is my friend and he is yours too, and he loves each and everyone of us. I testify that we have a loving Heavenly Father watching over us, and he patiently stands by waiting for the day that he can answer everyone one of our dreams. But first we have to learn to dream and to believe in them.
    The trick in life is not in learning to dream, dreaming comes as naturally as breathing, if we let it. Dreaming is what sometimes saves us from the complexity of this detailed existence. The trick comes in learning to believe in our dreams, and believing that there is a supreme being watching over us that loves us enough to want to make our dreams come true. The trick is believing. But once you learn to believe it is a powerful tool, it changes the way you live life, it changes the eyes through which you see life, and it changes the soul which you become in this life.
   

Doubt Not Only be Believing

The amazing thing about Moses and the Red Sea is that fact that when he had the impression to part the red sea he did not pause or hesitate he did not sit down and tell the lord that it was crazy or to hard, in a time full of pressure and faithlessness in those around him he simply believed. He knew that with God all things are possible, because he knew who he was and who he could become with the lords help. All things are possible not just the most practical. He believed and acted on that belief.

Doubt has been the precursor to every miracle that Almost happened whether in modern days or in biblical times. There was nothing about the parting of the Red Sea that was greater than the reformation of the church or even the small miracles that happen in each and every one of our lives. If you are listening to the still small voice, and believing in faith that you can do the things he is asking of you, you might as well be parting the Red Sea, because you are opening doors for others that until you had faith to follow the spirit had been powerfully locked. And if you can learn to have complete and unquestionable faith in God and his power in your life and through your life you might as well be the children of Israel through the Red Sea on dry ground, because allegorically that is precisely what you were sent her for.

We are in the last days, we've been saved for the last leg of the journey, and the last siege of  this battle. In a day where the odds are so great against us we cannot afford to make those odds greater by doubting. Now is the time to have the faith to charge even when retreat seems to be the only option. We have a call, and we have power through the lord to do amazing things, all we need is to find the courage and belief to do them.
27 Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and ^athrust it into my side: and be not ^bfaithless, but ^cbelieving.
 "With God All things are possible! "

People May Not Hear

I have learned though the years that the words that go unwritten in time will become warped and twisted. People can use words as weapons against those who speak them, even when spoken in truth. In a world full of lawyers and attorneys people have learned to twist words to gain the result they desire no matter what the original intent was. If words go unwritten, they go undecided because there is no way to keep them solid and structured the way they once were if they are spoken and carried away in the winds of time. Something I've realized is People may not see the actions I do when they are not looking, and people may not hear some of the softer words I speak and in time, people may even forget the original message which I shared when they did hear me. I may not be able to show what I am feeling as well as I wish, But nobody can dispute the words that I write that contains the dynamic elements of my soul. People can never argue that the words that I write are not true to what I feel inside and who I am. For they are signed with the signature of my heart. And if people read my words seeking to understand who I am it is in my words they will find it. It is there in the signature of my soul. 

Reflections of Me

I though I would just take time to type up some of the things I love in life hoping that they are a proper representations of who I am inside.
I love silence that you hear while snow falls, I love the smell of crunching leaves during autumn. I love sunsets at the end of my hardest days, and at the end of my good days too. I like getting up early and watching the sunrise on my roof with my little brothers. I like the fresh feeling that floats through the air when spring is on the way, and I love the crisp feeling of autumn in the air. Autumn and Spring are my favorite seasons. Utah has gorgeous sunsets. I love the way I feel walking away from a wonderful fireside, and I love the softness you feel towards people when you take the time to have real in depth conversations and get to know each other. I like trying on shoes and bananas in my cheerios. I love butterfly kisses and bear hugs.
I like the taste of peppermint on my tongue, and although I don't like the dentist I love the feeling of clean healthy teeth. I like smiling and laughing and I love smiling even more, when I feel like smiling all day, just because I'm happy. I love the moment in the movies when the girl gets kissed by the guy deserves it most. I love curling up on the couch and watching a great movie with my family. I love listening to the end credit music and the end of movies, I like listening to all the details that added together make music feel like a beautiful invisible picture that you feel instead of seeing.
I love being lead by a guy that knows how to dancing, and I love it when listening to music makes my heart dance. I love that growing up my parents insisted on me learning how to play instruments, and while I was never a pro I learned to appreciate the beauty of music, and I can play the piano for the pleasure of feeling the key touch the tips of my fingers. I love the empowering moment when I nail something that I have been working at for a long time. I like playing beautiful expressive music that will touch hearts and I love singing at the top of my lung in my car when no one can care what I sound like.
I love that moment music expresses your emotion perfectly. I love proving the negative thinkers wrong and proving that I am what I want to be, not what they stereotype me as.
I like finding discounts and knowing that I can get good quality, I like sweaters hoodies and skirts. I love being able to dress up and feel like a lady. I love it when even when someone doesn't like you they respect you for who you are, and I love it when I find myself capable of doing the same.
I love that when I come home to visit I wake up to either childrens laughter or my family singing, I love going camping with my family and ending up with our little cocker spaniel wrapped around the top of my head, with her head on my shoulder. I like going to lake powell with my family and the random moments of insider jokes you remember. I love picking up the phone with my brother-in-law to hear him call me sunshine on the other line. I miss horses and I loved riding bareback and feeling the wind in my hair. I love waltzing gracefully to beautiful music although I haven't done it in years. I love it when I get a dance move just right after practicing over and over to get it that way.
I like fruit yogurt and pizza, and while I've always felt that I was a very independent person, I love knowing that there are people that are concerned and care for me. I like going home to well cooked meals. I like long talks with my family that are full of insight and upliftment.

I guess what really matters is that yes sometimes life stinks and sometimes it's hard, but in all the frustrating complexity I love it. I love my life and while I may not agree with everything going on in my country I love my country, it is beautiful and has a wonderful legacy. I love the gospel, and the insight it gives me. I love life and I hope that people can see my love for life and see it as a reflection of who I am.